This is Project One

project one was yesterday..
had screening.. at 12..
which we didn't know of until the
very last minute. =(
obviously we didn't make it on time.
couldn't finish as well..
if only we made the right sacrifices
and rendered earlier.
but. what's the use now .
what ifs and if onlys.
probably should suck i up and
remember this experience.
although i didn't really learn much
of the software stuff..to be honest.
i learned a lot on character building
and attitude.. as well as
how to deal with certain situations
at certain times.
for example. there is something
that most of our group memebers were
agreeing on when we were talking about it
after the screening..
discipline.
surely everyone would remember
Crewsade's production at the screening.
it was THE group that i was waiting to see.
because when i saw a rough one a few weeks ago.
i was already so awed. even mr ronald
started clapping..when the lamp showed up.
maan..that raj .
been working on it for MONTHS. haha.
ever since he saw alan do it.
and when ronald was clapping..
i felt so proud.. for raj. even though
i had nothing to do with it. i just...
felt weird. hahaha. inside. don't know. =]
it's one of those scenes where it can move you to tears. ahhah.
one of the most important factor
i feel that was behind crewsade's
awesome success is really.. discipline.
and the best example would be raj .
from the day i knew him.
i respected him for that. seriously.
he is not human .Hahah.
and during this p1. he sort of
became my inspiration. haha.
i WILL. make it to his standard and above!
before i graduate. haha.
hopefully...
i really have to buck up. haha.
or i'll lag behind. big time.
our group didn't screen though..
thankfully.. it's quite embarressing..
mr ronald was being so sweet.. honestly.
he was helping us all the way .
and alan was kind of dragging it for us
as well... i was so thankful for that..
but i feel that we've disppointed them
a lot. a lot a lot.
i feel so dumb.
could've done so many things.
would've finished on time...
should've ended nicely..
but.. like andrea always says.. life goes on.
prob won't make a difference
in our marks anyway.
no matter how much we cleaned up.
preparing to hand in today. =/
either we fail.
or we screw up like#@$%.
oh wells.
deserved it i guess.
wake up call.
ugh..
so many things i want to say.
really.. but i cannot remember.
at the end of the day .
we only have ourselves to blame.
initiative initiative initiative.
take the lead.
if anything were to happen.
it's up to yourself to
make the difference..
always had that in mind since secondary
when the priest told me this
after i went to him during mass.
but i ALWAYS. ALWAYS
never apply it when the time comes.
stupid.stupid stupid!